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last night i dreamed something wonderful. God spoke to me, “Baby, when i created You, i had him in mind.”

Someday you’re going to meet someone who drives you mad, who you’re going to fight with and laugh with. Someone who you’ll do insane things for. Someone who is going to turn your life upside down.

So this is when we finally learn the real meaning of change. You do things you used to be against, you date the people you never thought you would and you befriend people you used to hate. You’ll learn what its like to have your heart broken, to lose a friend that truly meant something to you, & feel as if everything is really falling apart. There will be times that your life seems so horrible it feels like its not real. Despite all this, good things will come too. You’ll make the most amazing friends that will be there for you even when they probably shouldnt. Your broken heart will heal once you find the most perfect guy you’ve ever met & just as nothing else can go wrong, things will only get better. There will be the days you are so happy & the days you feel like dying. Drama happens, gossip goes around and people talk shit. Maybe this is life… or maybe — its just growing up.

i never regret those mistakes that i did. without them, i wouldn’t realize how proud i must be for having such a great guy, my bf. that even my friends like him. a true gentleman. a true lover. most especially, a best friend. after what i have done, you still love me. no less and more. you still welcomes me with arms wide open. been always there to wipe my tears even if sometimes its not for him. what that bastard told me isn’t true. infact, i knew some girls who tried to be the other girl. sadayang hindi lang talaga malande ang bf ko. and dont you ever think you are more good-looking than he is. look at yourself in front of the mirror a hndred times over or more. having such a flat nose wouldn’t take you anywhere. and bragging about a car which infact and basically not yours but a daddy’s car is so turn off. with these, i am loving my ney more. no, i am not cursing that shit guy. well, wish him luck on his board exam for the 2nd time. and to the man i am with, ill be gathering all the love i can grasp and show them to you. make up is still the sweetest part. i love you ney and i can tell you that straight in the eye.

allowing myself to believe in you is stupid. dont you ever think that i might do something that can affect your status quo either negatively or positively. i am not as bullshit as you are. and i dont want to give a damn about you anymore. i should’ve been told. i remained in silence despite the fact that you are so gay shit spreading some fucked up lies about what happened. yes, you are a great guy. right? you deserve to have a girlfriend as ugly as you. that’s why i am not surprised when you denied her. oh, this is so bad of me. anyway, im just returning back all the shits you caused me mr. good-for-nothing. did i just call you mr.? u aint mister. u aint a man. cause from the very beginning, i knew u got no balls.

p.s.
i love the people around me as well as the people around you. they see more. they can differentiate truth from LIE.

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in the meantime, ill be on tumblr.

its been months since my last post. i’ve missed a lot of things to write.

unfortunately, some of them are either forgotten or trying to be…

there’s a lot of things going on in my mind now. and no one could ever understand. no, im not an emo freak. maybe, just plain freak. rater, a crazy drama queen freak. stupid. useless to say such things since it was no fun looking infront of your pc screen(or whatever screen it may be) and just be reading stuffs about the freaky me.

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